Dear A – a funny sort of love letter
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You know that clock that shows the Earth’s age and then blows your mind by reminding you that humans have only been around for like a second? Well, if that clock was for marriages, A and I would be a millisecond. Which probably goes some way to explaining why I’m not that great at marriage […]

Out of Office / Out of My Mind
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I am away. Out of Office. Yet compelled to write. I read a lot when I go away. I’m in an Agatha Christie zone at the moment, so much so that I’m living a kind of weird half life as an 85 year old sleuther I’m not sure that A. my 32 year old companion […]

Going Rogue is in Vogue
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We are messing with my Meds. Which means we are messing with my hormones. Which means trouble. While I say ‘we are messing with my meds’ in a chavilar fashion, I’d like to make it clear it is with the full permission of my Specialist and Nurse, I have not gone rogue. My cancer was […]

Burtaversary!
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This is an email I sent to A. just before my diagnosis, he was away on an international tour, I used to find this email sad but now I just think how far we’ve come. Benign Tumour! Almost! I’ve named him Burt. Hello my dearest flying man, So I met a very kind Dr today. […]

Five years more
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Dearest Ma, It has been five years again, last year I was convinced it had been five years – four didn’t seem hardly long enough for how long I’d been missing you. Four years seemed like no time at all and so much has happened in the years since you died. As always lots has […]

Do These Genes Look Good on Me?
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Sometimes Facebook tells me when it’s been a while since I blogged. It actually says “it’s been a while since your audience has heard from you”. It’s been saying that a lot lately, I’m slightly tickled about having an audience. Well, little blog it has been a while. I wanted so much not to just […]

A Shift in Time and Space
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Things are changing in my world. Not in the ghastly – cancer’s going to mug you and take your year – kinda way. That way knocks the wind out of you, leaves you on your ass while it skates by shouting “loser”. So I’m very grateful it’s not that kind. Life is yelling “Forwards” at […]

Celebrate!
Celebrate!

We had a little celebration. Actually that’s underselling it as we had a lot to celebrate! It was overwhelming, in the best way, to be surrounded by all the people adore the most. We gave speeches, I’d not managed until the day to read mine without crying but I just about got through it. Dad […]

So This Happened…
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A and I are home from an adventure jet-lagged and muzzy with lack of sleep but very, very Happy. Last year I introduced little Blog on Facebook with the phrase “so this happened”, it felt important to announce this very happy news the same way. Put some demons to rest, so to speak. A and […]